After a long day back at work today, I was feeling this whole "full-time ministry/missions" was very surreal to say the least! As I got back into the swing of working today, everything else felt like a dream and some anxiety started in...are we really feeling God's call in this?? Are we really going to give up our pups and quit our jobs?? I have worked at my nutrition/allergy practice for 8 years, very dedicated and focused and just love what I do! Is God really asking me to give it up? To walk away from it??? Wow...it hit me square in the face...fear. So I stopped what I was doing and just spent some time in prayer & worship...God led to a beautiful book of prayers called - "His Princess - Prayers to My King" by Sheri Rose Shephard. LOVE this book! I prayed and asked God to please give me a word and this is what I opened it up to...
"Lord, you are my answer to everything. There is no one like You. Whatever I need, You supply. Whenever I'm confused or fearful, Your Word clears my mind and sets my mind at rest. Lord, I want You to use me to do great things for your Kingdom. I don't want past disappointments to keep me from responding with anything but passion and purpose to the call You have on my life. So today I am asking You for the greatest desire of my heart, please make my life matter for eternity. Guide my steps toward that great goal and continue to bless me with all I need to SERVE You. Help me to never give up or give in to anything but You. You are all that I need or want!" Amen
Praise God! He reminded me that it's not about ME and what I can do or want to do, it's really all about what He can do THROUGH me! It's about HIM and serving Him. I need to learn how to give it ALL over to Him so I can be used for Him and this next 8 months will be that process...oh my Father, thank you for speaking to me so directly...I feel such a peace again and know that these emotions of mine, are just that...emotions. They are not your truth, so I need to not put too much attention on them and just keep my eyes on You and keep moving forward. I love you my Father & King.
sue
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I loved your honesty in this post Sue...we all struggle with putting "self" aside to do His work with full commitment. Thank you for this writing, it has encouraged me!
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