Life is good, maybe too good, or is it? I just got back to work after having sixteen days off. I spent most of my time resting and relaxing, being with my family, but most of all I loved spending quality time with my beautiful and inspiring wife... That's right, I said inspiring. She inspires me to do many things. She introduced me to Christ, how inspiring is that?! Anyway, back to the original point I started with...
During our break, Sue and I spent alot of our time talking and sharing our dreams about what God wants us to do with our time here on this big blue marble. Both of us being tired of being tired, working for the American Dream, not God's Dream, and reacquainting ourselves with one other again. Thank you Jesus for that...
It also gave me time to reflect and soul search about what is important to me. God has given me a servants heart, and I don't feel that I'm using it very well. I work many hours a day, come home, fix and eat dinner, talk to my wife, watch tv or read, and go to bed (ooops, I brush my teeth first!) I do this each week over and over again. I have a house, a car, toys to play with. On my days off I spend all of my time working on, maintaining and fixing my stuff...then all of my money goes to maintain all of this stuff. (Oh boy, I feel like George Carlin right now!!) So where is my servants heart in all of this? Ok, I give offerings and I tithe my 10 percent, but that's not mine anyway, It's God's...
During our break, Sue and I spent alot of our time talking and sharing our dreams about what God wants us to do with our time here on this big blue marble. Both of us being tired of being tired, working for the American Dream, not God's Dream, and reacquainting ourselves with one other again. Thank you Jesus for that...
It also gave me time to reflect and soul search about what is important to me. God has given me a servants heart, and I don't feel that I'm using it very well. I work many hours a day, come home, fix and eat dinner, talk to my wife, watch tv or read, and go to bed (ooops, I brush my teeth first!) I do this each week over and over again. I have a house, a car, toys to play with. On my days off I spend all of my time working on, maintaining and fixing my stuff...then all of my money goes to maintain all of this stuff. (Oh boy, I feel like George Carlin right now!!) So where is my servants heart in all of this? Ok, I give offerings and I tithe my 10 percent, but that's not mine anyway, It's God's...
Life is good, too good, or is it? We have all of this stuff and we can buy anything that we want or need. If we don't have enough money to buy it, we can borrow it and get it anyway. For me, something gets lost in all of this. In the past years I've been reading books, articles, and watching many movies and documentories on other countries that have nothing, the people are sick and many are dying. A few people here and there help the cause, but it's so little, not enough money and usually too late. We here in the United States of America have everything that we need. Even the poor in this nation have a better standard of living. If God gave me a servants heart, I'm not using it very well. I'm doing the same thing everyone else is doing...living the American Dream. The problem is, is that I have no joy. I have all of this and my heart has no joy in it at all. I'm making myself comfortable to the highest level. I've been reading over and over that God doesn't want us comfortable, He wants us on our feet, active, moving forward, taking risks, conquering our fears, and being courageous for His Kingdom. How can we do that when our main want and need is to be comfy and to be more comfy than the Jones's??
Just writing the words, "active, risk, conquer, and courageous," made my heart, spirit and soul feel the joy of the Lord in it. I want to be in God's glory, to inspire people to live a life free of the earth's bondages and I want to have awesome journies with God to help any person with any need, but most of all I want to do God's will for the rest of my life. And I want to be full of my Father's Spirit and in the end die empty! Sue and I read a book from Dr. Myles Munroe called "Potential" about stepping out and living out the potential that God placed in each one of us and using that potential for Christ and His kingdom and dying empty...using it all up...living it all out! Too many people die and are buried in their graves with all of their potential still left. I don't want that to happen to me or my wife Sue.
People are hurting all over the place in many ways. I've seen it for years and know I have the want, need, and strength to finally do something about it! God has put in my heart to serve Him full time now and I am ready for the challenge. I have found the joy in my heart again. I have freedom that I have never experienced before and I thank my Father God for that. The addiction of being "comfortable" took away my joy and happiness for too many years and now it's time to take it back and give it to God!
Jesus, in His peace and glory, stands stong over the enemy and when I listen to Him, I can do all things through Christ and overcome my fears of stepping out of my comfort zone.
I thought life was good before....I was wrong. With this new insight and courage to step out, or it's more like "JUMP OUT" of this comfy pattern I had put on myself, I am ready, willing, and able with God taking the lead. Thank you Jesus for saving my heart.
michael
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